I feel so stressed all of a sudden. Finally submitted the research report. Just an elective but I feel so tensed cuz it is their core! Luckily there is this thing called SU. Have totally no idea why my hands are feeling so cold now. But I am very glad I managed to submit on time, though it is much later than I expect. I think my biggest problem is i love to procrastinate doing things. When I am given so much time, I will dilly dally. I take a few days to write a few paragraph. I must say this report I have written sucks. It has a super long introduction and a body with totally low coherence and content or analysis, with a flowery conclusion just to show off some language skills and trying to act as if I did understand the whole module. Bleh.

Tomorrow is the lyric exam. I must say, I have spent practically 10% of my time on it, as compared to this other elective which has super many readings. I hope I can study somemore later and then tomorrow morning since the paper is at 5. And last night I plugged in my earphones and play those 24 songs tested, hoping they will go into my brain cells. Silly but tonight I am gonna do it again. Gonna play the songs non stop over and over again. Need to write some analysis for some songs too. Actually I think the teacher is very kind he gave many hints but somehow I wished he didnt cuz I don't really need them and if everyone else has gotten the same hints, means I have lesser chance of getting an A and I am have such a foul mouth, choy.

ARGH. And I discovered a really huge flaw of me. Whenever something turns into work, even something I enjoy doing, I will start to procrastinate and put less effort, time and passion into doing the thing. =( Sucks isn't it. I wish I can change!

There's this guy in my FI class that I think I need to kill.

First, a friend told me before that she overhead this conversation between him and his friend. He was originally from Engin. The content is sth like Engin has too many pro ppl and he finds it tough over there, whereas over here in Bus, he "anyhow study" and can still be better than the rest of us.

?!@$#@%#$^&!#%$#!!

Trying to say that we are lousy is it. Go back to Engin if you are so great.
But since this is just hearsay and not sth I really heard, I just take it with a pinch of salt and use it for conversation material sometimes.

But, today he actually did sth that I tsked out loud to show my displease.

We were talking about the coming exams with the Prof. That paper was like one of the last, on 8th Dec. And he actually asked the Prof if it can be brought forward. Like wth?! You are "better" than the rest of us but don't have to act this way right.

I think some people have really low EQ. They think they are so great. They say things like these to show themselves and perhaps others that they are capable. But too bad it is a not a good plan. BLEH. Maybe they are worth pitying cuz maybe they never knew that this is a problem all along. Smart people don't always say out everything they are thinking about.

今天是歌词导读的最后一堂课。
接近五点半时，当同学纷纷收起东西，杂声四起时，我好像听见老师说祝我们快乐地享受校园生活之类的话。
好像只有中文文学的老师才会说出这种充满感概且希望的话。
到了大学，教授似乎不等于老师。他们多半只是传授课本知识，好像缺乏了一点人性的部分，所以课一上完，只会想赶快离开。
我怀念听着中文老师那种细腻的教学方式。不巧的是，至今我的中文老师都是男生。
或许是这样，我希望我向往的男生，也懂得欣赏中文文学的美。
对于最后一堂课的今天，我是有点不舍。很少会不舍得一堂课的结束。
我知道每一堂修的课的终点必定是考试。但我不希望把这堂课也如此归类。
希望以后还可以继续欣赏文字中的奥妙。

 

Rilakkuma <3

Perhaps I was seeking a kind of feeling which I thought I had lost.
Went Lovely Land again on Thursay. =pPpPp
Think I was loitering too much I feel like I have to buy sth.
And I saw a pair of really cute thingy sitting on the shelf.
They look so happy together I feel obliged to bring the pair home instead of either one.

 
And they lie side by side in this tiny little blue plastic bag on our journey home.

 

Weeeeeee.. Sometimes it really takes some impulse to do sth, even for simple things like buying the bears I like, since they essentially have no functional purpose. Once I told the man I want the bears, I couldn't contain the glee in myself and couldn't stop smiling. The man in Lovely Land is a Japanese man I think, he looks a bit fierce I am scared of him.




Have to take a family shot of a section of my plushes.
I know it is really childish but seeing them gives me some kind of motivation in life.

Maybe we should stop thinking so much about life. It seems tough to carry on when I start to go into details.
Anw, the cream bear is Korilakkuma. I am starting to like her. I think it is a her. She seems so gentle.